moanlog – Anonymous moaning

sometimes i'm so stupid that i wish i weren't supposed to be so smart.

You're fucking unreasonable. Stop fucking controlling me.

Urgh nothing. Nothing to do. Or think. I can't even write.

So relieved when it was friday and work was over. Aleady getting a knot about Monday coming around. Now i've got a manager position, instead of clinical work being paramount, it's all about Audits and tick box exercises. When I speak about the patients being our priority,it's like i'm howling at the wind.
If I step down into a lower position, I then don't have the power to flag up errors an effect change.
It's lose/lose and I don't know how much more I can take. If you put everything you have into your work, what's left?

why the fuck am i on your fb limited profile.... god damn it.

I wish you were here with me RIGHT now :(

oh god, when did it become so easy again?

What's the point in asking me a question when you're just going to ignore it and blurt out your own ridiculous answer that you formulated using those two brain cells of yours. Keep your arrogance to yourself and stop putting your misconception on others you miserable git.

I have *never* sponged off my parents this much. Have some respect for the people who created you. Try and learn how to get a job on your own and pay your own way for everything. You are a drain on your parents resources. I hate how you come and go as you please, leave your dirty filthy items of clothing and used dishes around the house like its a fucking hotel. Stop sleeping all day like its normal, get out and get a fucking job!! This is your home, not your uni accommodation you fuck off to usually. I wish you could see how hard it is without your parents being there for you spoon feeding you. Grow up.

I love being a woman but sometimes when my mother puts the most ridiculous restrictions on me [can't go out late, can't meet boys alone, can't dress inappropriately], I hate being a woman especially with so many aspirations of freedom in my head.