moanlog – Anonymous moaning

you're doing with her what you did with me, we all know how it ends.

My spin shivers when I look at your photo and realise I'm never going to see you again, then a sinking feeling when I realise there's nothing I can do.

What I wouldn't give to make things go back to the way they were.

At no point in my life have I ever hated being a woman. After being told I have an ovarian cyst that needs to be removed, I wish I never had to go through this.

Sooo, the reason for the separation is you spend every night in the newly built 5k garage, with the fancy as fuck bmw out front that you rarely drive and then only to pose in, while me and your four year old daughter sit in the house with all my pitifully low wages spent on bills and her Christmas things. But when I ask you to take us to somewhere cheap like a park to actually do anything with us as a family you end up spitting nails because of the miles it'll put on the car and the cost of the fuel. However today was the last straw because you haven't paid the mortgage. You useless fucking prick. Yes I called you thick and boring. Any dumb bastard that can't make hs finances work when he brings home £665 a WEEK , AFTER tax and the mortgage is only £340 a month! IS DUMB.

Saying goodbye on the platform isn't the best, i miss you so much and i hate leaving you :(

fuck plane ticket prices.

why the fuck did you get put on the other side of the world to me
eeeeeerrrrgh

When you're not with me I feel completely and utterly like shit. I get very down, don't eat properly and end up just moping around this house. I am so happy when i'm with you so I don't know how I'm going to cope when I have to go back to uni and stay in this god-forsaken place full time again. Jesus, not talking to you for 3 days was hard enough for
both of us, so god knows how's going to be when we're weeks apart again. I love you and miss you so much it's unbelieveable.

What kind of a lecturer are you? I mean, seriously. This lecture was the last before the Christmas break and the last chance to raise concerns and questions regarding the exam we have when we return.

Instead of showing up you decide to get "stuck in Spain" like some an idiot who can't plan their journey. You're a lecturer, you have students relying on you to appear. Seriously, you've turned into a fucking joke. You appeared to know the answers to all the problems we had and you were the most professional. Over the the semester you've completely smashed that perception.

I'm paying [indirectly] to get jet off to Mediterranean countries and not show up to the lectures. Nice one.

Clean white tops. Muddy field. Nuff said.