moanlog – Anonymous moaning

I absolutely hate people that mask their favours in bullshit conversations that at the end of it mean nothing when you whack out the "oh, by the way can you", "oh yeah that reminds me", "when you get a chance"...

The worst are when they ALWAYS invite you over when you KNOW there's going to be something they want you to do.

Another all time favourite is using their children as a reason to come over then they surprise you with something to do for them.

Of course all of this is free and if you even think about charging them you'll be sent straight to hell.

Only one person can change this and make it better but your head is so far up your own arse that you can't see through your shit and selfishness

It occurs to me now that I have been an addict since middle school, using drugs to numb the anguish from a perceived lifetime streak of inferiority. Along the way, there were friends and lovers in a degerating sequence of interest. Today, I see that everyone is gone and I am alone. Perhaps moving alone across the country and severing all ties to home at age 18 wasn't an idea rife with particularly adept foresight.

Today, I hide in the library and cry about long-gone ex-girlfriends, about the emotional reaction I experience when seeing others, about the dearth of social energy, about the regret of talent squandered and chances wasted.

Everyday I see others whose adversities are unavoidably conspicuous -- I feel a dull charge that I cannot help them in some way, though I feel an acute shock of guilt that I cannot get past my own self-induced issues and appreciate my able body and (once) clear mind.

Now, I see that I am sapping resources from a world that have an opportunity cost far greater than the return I could ever generate from them. The world would be economically better-off if someone else were breathing this air instead of me. The world would be economically better-off if someone else were absorbing the sunshine.

Today is perhaps the most hollow I have felt in my short life. I am glad this space exists for me to express this sentiment, because I certainly don't think that I should approach others with these concerns. If there is one thing I have learned as a young-adult, it's that there is no solace to be found in others -- they just want you to stop talking. And so, I shall.

once a cunt always a cunt

So relieved when it was friday and work was over. Aleady getting a knot about Monday coming around. Now i've got a manager position, instead of clinical work being paramount, it's all about Audits and tick box exercises. When I speak about the patients being our priority,it's like i'm howling at the wind.
If I step down into a lower position, I then don't have the power to flag up errors an effect change.
It's lose/lose and I don't know how much more I can take. If you put everything you have into your work, what's left?

Dont you just hate when you call up the electrition to fix something up and he ends up using Google to find the solution?

birthdays and shit couldn't come at a worse time financially grrrr

ha all in on girls

So even on your way out of your job you don't have the dignity to leave without stirring up shit and trying to get people to fall out with each other can you?
You are one small minded motherfucker and I guarantee you this - all your evil, lying, backstabbing, sneaky, dishonest ways are going to
Catch up with you. Karma...fucking Karma. Be afraid - be very afraid my friend because the Universe will
Balance out the things you've done.

Goodbye you bit fat fucking lying piece of shit. I'll be happy to see you fucking go!! Now fuck off!

i love you sooo much plz just wake up and fuin realise it already xx