moanlog – Anonymous moaning

Selfish spoilt and self centred. That is YOU

What you did was wrong. I know that you know that, and I know you admit it to yourself. Guess we can't always have our cake and eat it, can we. I've moved on from the whole situation now, but I feel like I need to get out the last bit of bitterness that's living within me.
The worst part for me was that you lied to my face. You came into my room, looked me in the eye, and lied to me. And I believed you, because I respected you, not believing you would do something like that.
I don't think you fully appreciate what you did to the family, either. Mum couldn't cope. The time after you left was one of the hardest of my life, watching my own mother break down every day. Not letting myself feel the emotions that were ready to explode inside of me, because I had to stay strong for mum and my brother. I don't know what would have happened if I wasn't there.

I don't need to say anymore, because I know you're still living with the guilt of it all while we, for the best part, have been able to put it behind us and move on to a better stage of our life.

When you call me please have a reason for calling me. The worst thing in the world is someone calling you and you know they want something but they're seriously beating 'round the bush because they're too idiotic to figure out what they want.

If you want something, phone the right person and know that they can help you, don't waste peoples time and, fuck me this is the worst bit, act all chummy and friendly - I know you're only sucking my dick only to get something.

you're not even my boss anymore. wtf is your problem? ffs

everytime i think i'm making progress, i find out that i'm actually not moving at all. you know what? fuck you. at least i'm making an effort.

Nigella's steeley face of determination as she walks into court - that's me that is. I have that picture on my fridge to remind me that no matter how much crap comes my way, never ever let my guard down and be out of control. I will never reveal my inner thoughts to people who know me. That would make me weak and vulnerable.
I don't understand why people around me need to gossip, and to ask someone else "what they think" about every minute aspect of their lives. What do they expect to achieve? Surely the person to make the best decisions in someone's life is the person who knows the most about the person, ie the person themselves. My opinion - stop fucking gossiping about crap, get off your fat bone idle backsides and do something. Talk is cheap.

so that kiss meant nothing to you? after all that?

Stop using me as a median! I don't care about your problems! So just go away!

FOR FUCK SAKE - ALL GURURAVS FOKIN FAULT LYK

I'll be driving in my Ferrari whilst I see you still peddling on that bike of yours