I honestly don't know why i bother anymore, maybe it's cause i still value what little friendship we have left? But its not just me you're treating like shit, its everyone, you don't even have what people refer to as a life anymore.
Stop being a fucking coward and grow a pair, life is tough we can't all run away from it, so stop acting like a child like you always do.
Maybe if you actually did something different for a change and saw the people who care about you, you would realise you have a lot of help available if you ask for it.
I don't even know if you need it, you've made absolutely no effort to acknowledge I exist, let alone talk to me.
I know things haven't gone well lately, but pushing/blanking others won't make it better.